Monday, January 30, 2012

Found

Wednesday morning I had tossed crumpets on my bare toes before eight o'clock in the morning. They had formerly belonged to Trevelyn.
So loving him sweetly with soft words and cool rags took up the rest of my day.

Maddie had a sleep-over on Thursday (well, they both did, but....) Trevelyn was feeling much better by then, though wiped out, and of course he stayed home.
Madeleine was looking and feeling spry, so she headed out with her five or six bags of gear, and went to play with friends. None of us were certain how well it would 'take', especially without Trevelyn - she's never slept away from her Mama and Daddy, you know.  We got a one a.m. call, at that time she had been asleep, and woke my friend Julie with "I wanna go home".
After Julie called us (we live just about exactly one mile away), and while Eric was on his way, Madd said she had to go to the bathroom, and promptly threw up.
I later found out definitively that it wasn't nerves, that she had kept her daddy up all night with her many bouts of retching. Friday morning found Trevelyn better, Maddie gray, and me still hopeful.

I went to the grocery store that afternoon, got foodstuffs  and Maddie a soft little stuffed puppy (because I love her, and I knew she would greatly appreciate that) and some jello and Sierra Mist.  (I didn't have the truck or lots of extra money when Trev was sick.)
By somewhere around six or seven o'clock Friday night, I was totally helpless and incapacitated on the bathroom floor.  (Imagine the worst... it would be true.)

Saturday found me pondering my gratitude for many things.
First on my mind was the fact that I was the last to be ill.  There was no way I would have been able to take care of another while that was raging through me.
Next on my mind were various things... how enjoyable it was to just lay about and snuggle, for days.  Myth Buster marathons (we started with one, and are now on episode 31), RugRats, Angelina Ballerina... depending on who was ill and doing the choosing.
There was an incredible softness in those days... a gentleness that I greatly needed to notice. 
You know that I was feeling out of sorts a week before... doing a lot of noticing and criticizing of my thoughts and emotions... lying about on Saturday (because though I wasn't feeling particularly wretched, I couldn't move) gave me lots of 'witness' time.

This last week or so found me in a completely different place.
No longer was I feeling harried or critical. 
Apparently, I was done with objections and objecting.
I was finding a new Balance.
I have a lot to say about that, but it will have to wait for a bit... gotta get it (and my house!) straight and tidy before I can convey my insights properly.

Saturday also found me watching Ram Dass : Fierce Grace, noticing that Deepak Chopra is having a winter 21-day meditation challenge beginning in February (which I have signed up for), and dreaming of an ashram in India.  :)  I don't have India, but I do have temples and mountaintops in my mind, and I do have teachers, so....

Sunday found us better.  Me with a slight amount of energy (enough to be standing on my own), Maddie whirling and making up for lost time, and Trevelyn looking and acting just barely less than his usual self.

I expect we'll all feel quite recovered today.
I'm looking forward to it!

10 comments:

  1. I'm sorry to hear you were all ill - we've all been under the weather here, as well, although thankfully *not* with a stomach complaint. Ours has been a head/chest cold… And I'm glad you're feeling better.

    And really…there *is* something about being sick, isn't there? I mean, besides the "being sick" part, which is always awful - the "good reason" to just slow down & take it easy & settle in…is kind of nice. Isn't it? xo

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  2. I'm glad you are all feeling better!

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  3. We are sick too. Minus the stomach virus. Just a load of snot.
    I feel for you.
    And yes, there is that perk of sickness. It is that cuddle in, eat foods that love you back, and the slow snuggle just lie with me bit that makes it all sort of bearable. I am glad you are on the mend.

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  4. I am so glad everyone is feeling better.

    Isn't is funny how things can work out like that :).

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  5. oy. glad that's over with!!! i do tend to enjoy the enforced slow-down, but the ickies that go with it not soooo much.

    and re: kid freedom??? yeah, us too. round the block, down several blocks to meet dad on his way home...a request to walk to the grocery store (um...no!), but hearing the longing for some independence, with Miss Six in tow...it's hard!!

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  6. You all had the sickness that was going around. It was a nasty bug, huh? Glad everyone is starting to feel better.

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  7. Yes, our family knows this feeling. Michael has it now (killer head cold with snot), Benjamin is still blowin and coughin and I'm just down to blowin.

    SO sorry you guys got the stomach nonsense. :(

    Wishing EVERYONE 100% unyuck soon!

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  8. Listened to a programme on the radio about virtual pilgrimages...and it was really interesting. Made me want to do a real life adventure one day, but in the mean time the virtual ones sound cool.

    Glad you are better....obviously the universe knew what you needed, once again :)

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  9. i often wonder what would happen if i got knocked down by some super yuck. lately all sorts of little yuckies have been going thru my house and i have somehow managed to avoid them all (knock on wood).
    glad to hear you are all on the mend.

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  10. Glad to hear you're all feeling better. Sounds like a restful few days, once you'd all stopped being sick!
    Batteries recharged - off you go :-)

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Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts!