Every year I start pondering my word for the year by coming up with words, thoughts... things I want it to mean.
In January 2008, my first year for choosing a word for my year (I'd never been a new year's resolution person), I chose Intention. It seemed to hold together all the things I needed it to.
The next year was Still. Going within and finding a sacred, quiet space to grow.
The following year was Beauty. Which I was this close to choosing again this year.
Last year I chose Harmony to be my focus.
This year I was thinking Joy, as always. :) (I really am very fond of Joy.) I read the word Glow somewhere, and almost chose it.... but it wasn't quite right. I wanted it to have a little more sparkle than that, for it to be just a little bit bigger.
What I was looking for this year was something wonderful for my children to see. Years ago, before I had my two babes, my mother had (it's probably still there) a small paper sign on her fridge that said something about letting your eyes light up when a child comes into the room. I've thought of it many times over the years, and it's something I believe to be a wonderful gift to children.
I want my eyes to light when I see my children. Light. That had more of what I wanted than glow.... glow is luminous, mysterious, and quiet... I wanted something bigger like Light. Like Sparkle. But Sparkle wasn't right, for I needed my word to have a richness, depth...
So I was getting closer. I wanted something to remind me to come from within. I want to reflect and recognize beauty. I want to to make choices that inspire my children. I want to offer my children and my husband -and my Self- light. I want to come from a glowing flame within, and to radiate Joy. I want to shine.
One of my very favorite words.
I smiled as soon as I thought of it.
Though it felt perfect, I didn't want be rash, so I sat with it for a while.
I went through all of the things that I wanted to be in my life in abundance this year. How did I want to represent myself? From where do I want this focus to come? Does Shine match it?
It does, I believe. If cared for rightly, it can begin in a quiet, glowing place within that I can look to when it's time for a decision, words, or action. It can be happily filled and fed with joy and beauty. In the end I aspire to offer days, moments, exchanges, words, eyes, heart, and a soul that Shines.
Yes. That's what I want. To shine.