Tuesday, October 19, 2010
a gift for me.
Sometimes things just come together magically, you know?
' Course, I'm talking about synchronicity. And quite probably serendipity, too.
So I've mentioned "living for love" lately.
I've been wanting to experiment with that, to find out what that means for me and my family. To find new heights. To find out what's really most important in my, and their ordinary moments.
The trouble is that I hadn't yet figured out how exactly to implement this idea into my everyday days - indeed, most of the time I forget about this mysterious, existential zenith entirely.
So here at this magical point, three things coincide.
My wanting to "live for love".
(and, indeed, this is a very fortuitous time for this, as at the moment I am feeling more a need to "get out of the negativity" or "change something" rather than a more positive, less-blaming and more loving desire simply to expand my self and love)
my Thay, Thich Nhat Hanh,
and the ever-expanding idea of "Just Ask".
It's almost humorous (but not quite) to me that inasmuch I feel the answer to life with my children is communication -even through simple speech (and that it so often solves problems lurking about that I don't know how to fix or deal with), that it has never occurred to me to just ask, as Thay suggests, "Please tell me how I can love you better."
Please tell me how I can love you better.
This miracle has come to me this morning by way of facebook, and a beautiful article in Whole Living magazine, The Love Experiment: One Question That Changes Everything.
I think that this question shall bring a whoooooole slew of things that I do not see coming.
I expect it will be at least a little painful. And alarming.
I suspect that in moments I will feel defensive.
Guilt is a given.
But I have to wonder if these more unsavory things are blatantly visible to me right now because I so need this time.
Time to experience and embrace different, better, grander parts of my Self.
That since I believe in marching for something, rather than against something, now is a perfect time to positively step into the light.
So I'm taking on expanding my Self by expanding my Love for a while.
This should be interesting....